death of a comedian

one of my favorite comedians 

made me extremely sad for the first time ever

by dying

i watched reruns of his shows

and laughed and laughed so hard i cried

but then i got confused

was i crying from the dying?

it does not matter because he was great

and i miss him

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set 4 self destruct

my life was self destruct set into slow motion

my tailor drug and drink

subgenre rebellion 

in the age of deconstruction

the undercurrent identity

for it would never be okay 

to not be who i knew 

i was

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go fish

back home 

staining they sketchpads with inks

up all night alone they would not buy the lies for free

misfit friends in they head. loner celebration

extinguished the tv and touched the room with radio

they cast they line 

deep and trolled for broken

hearts

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1983

our senses gone

an unbroken dawn 

cracks and poaches its whites by the sea

the folding of time into the sun and elements 

overexposed the same

no one to blame 

adventure magnificent and tragic 

we will never love like that 

again

#katyamills

different now

now i am having the adverse reaction to tv. i am different from you. now restless in the sleep. now pursuing some dream. now i am indifferent, locked without key. now sitting still. meditating. what looks like peace… it is an illusion

#katyamills

slush piles

a storm of emotion

anticipation of victory

all the colors of all the territories

condensed into one

powerful narrative

delivered to all the major publishing 

houses only to face resolute

defeat

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lemon

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maybe 7 years old 

pushing lemon wedges into my mouth 

until my face stretched out

from the sour 

acid

eliciting laughter by my diversion

better than any excuse 

for bad behavior

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selfless.ly

you and your force
of opinions

on any other day i indulge
in distant lands 
dive into RPGs and mobile 
phones 

today i laugh

selflessly plunging into
the vortex behind those
honey cambered
eyes

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sy.nap.se

there are days

where i am so pulled so stretched

to the synapses

give me ten minutes of rest

sunk in those spaces

recharged by chemical

reactions

#katyamills

dead body

deep in dead body pose

you never felt so alive

letting the exhalations wander 

out into space

with compassion 

for all

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