the give and take

my tired eyes tracked the screen for some intrigue on

the only holiday that had the guts to tell you what to do

 

i was thankful

for the day off and some time to myself

 

a film tapped into the part of me

wanted more outta life

you’re excellent when you’ve

something to prove

 

i asked my phone

remind me in 2 hours

to call somebody i love

 

 

 

30

friday pushed through the pain

saturday flopped around 

a video game

 

the front over the pacific

hit the coastline hard

wake up your life!

hissed the surf

of salt whip cream

 

sleepy sundays broke up

the years

 

again

we put ourselves out there

for whatever it was worth

27.20

i had to learn how to live all over again, after the trauma. i didn’t completely lose my ability to write or speak or communicate, but it did something to my nervous system, and i could not think clearly. my thought process was fragmented and tangential. my moods stood me up and walked me into altercations. my thoughts put on a show, racing recklessly into the night. i lived this way for several years. 7 years later i am doing well. i am calm and charged and can talk to anyone and look you in the eye. i am not easily triggered into fight or flight or freeze. i give thanks. i dedicate my life to communicating some hope to those who feel hopeless in the world.

force 5

the 5th force has been discovered she

is afraid
of light
as she decays she
shines

the 5th force has been found
in Hungary. they are coaxing her and fixing her up
under a microscope

now

she recedes into darkness
instinctively

soon she will be widespread and universally
loved. they dream. the latest force! in her prime! just
imagine!

she tends to avoid the spotlight. your

music is not my music how

can it be ours?
like a light in the dark she matters may

she
never go out.

hold her close now! how
she appears!