they had seeds for eyeballs the

oval packed about with soil

melancholy was their vital

irrigation the tears

in reverse 



i’m a lucky one found

work that makes me think

and feel. congruent with my 

mission on this fucked up 

planet earth



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latchkey kid and #indieauthor. nonbinary (she/they). genX. as the sun rises i morph into a #psychotherapist. i hold out hope for anyone and u

book review


 ReadRate this book1 of 5 stars2 of 5 stars3 of 5 stars4 of 5 stars5 of 5 starsTrouble ’99
by Katya Mills (Goodreads Author)
Sarah Carney‘s reviewSep 17, 2020
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I really liked the story and the message of this novella. I don’t think I’ve read a stream of consciousness styled book in a long time and parts were hard for me to get into.

It surrounds four 20-somethings in the Chicago area in 1999. The point of view is through the eyes of Kat and her experiences.

Overall I liked it, but probably not loved it. I would read more from this author, especially if there was a sequel to find out what happened in Kat’s life after 1999. 🙂


she took a train and they could see her

tear two sugars for her coffee
while the china rattled she

contemplated her navel should

i tell them what’s on my mind? she 
thought she thought she




the shade of lipstick

made from poison 

berry matches your eyes

fierce yet optimistic



my thoughts racing kept me up at night chasing. voices whispering i tried to be polite but they would not heed i shouted tore at my hair until my head bleed. finally i got busy with chores and like a plant without water they could not live no more #katyamills


i buried you under a thousand pounds

social anxiety mixed with

tears medication fears and 

dysphoria. what a mercy



death by tablet

robotic dogs and drones

cardboard cutouts at baseball games

peanuts and popcorn by microwave

virtual tours and perpetual world

wars. super storms and lightning

complex. next is death by tablet. 

oh! what a time to fall

in love    



the calm comes 

from within