one of my favorite comedians
made me extremely sad for the first time ever
by dying
i watched reruns of his shows
and laughed and laughed so hard i cried
but then i got confused
was i crying from the dying?
it does not matter because he was great
and i miss him
#katyamills
chased out of China
they made it West in shipping containers
up the deep water channel
into our city
the artful ones escaped the ports
dodged cars into yards
only to face their distant cousin
the American raccoon
who welcomed them
with gnashing teeth
to living hell
#katyamills
pain has many flavors
in the spine it’s like cayenne simmered in a chamomile bath
three years on it’s still hard to relax
the pandemic almost buried us all
now i take my key
striking out to see friends
#katyamills
my life was self destruct set into slow motion
my tailor drug and drink
subgenre rebellion
in the age of deconstruction
the undercurrent identity
for it would never be okay
to not be who i knew
i was
#katyamills
you talk of eradicating our rights you
lost touch with reality
you have mothers brothers sisters nephews
daughters and sons who identify
yet you still disbelieve?
you sleep but never dream
your hatred your brand your kind cannot last
we will always exist
#katyamills
they don’t really know what they
are doing
forgot all the things you said
to help them understand
the sun will shine again
your honey will love you
through anything
and when you put on your uniform
and go to work
all will even out
like cream stirred into
coffee
#katyamills
we broke off into cliques
saturated in our societal relations
disinterested
writing off half
the damn world
i became an individual again
somewhere i don’t know how or why
without closure
outside
looking in
#katyamills
back home
staining they sketchpads with inks
up all night alone they would not buy the lies for free
misfit friends in they head. loner celebration
extinguished the tv and touched the room with radio
they cast they line
deep and trolled for broken
hearts
#katyamills
our senses gone
an unbroken dawn
cracks and poaches its whites by the sea
the folding of time into the sun and elements
overexposed the same
no one to blame
adventure magnificent and tragic
we will never love like that
again
#katyamills
now i am having the adverse reaction to tv. i am different from you. now restless in the sleep. now pursuing some dream. now i am indifferent, locked without key. now sitting still. meditating. what looks like peace… it is an illusion
#katyamills
K IS SILENT 