she watched everything unfold
with a nonjudgmental eye
the world flipping channels
addicted to celebrity worship murder porn
character assassination
she had a terrible habit when bored
indulging in other’s opinions
forgive me
she announced
i have to go define
myself
#katyamills
in a vessel constructed by hand
they faced the mighty sea alone
the sails they sewn to withstand
hundred knot winds blown
past the limits of good faith
across the monochrome
lashed to the wheel by a knotted sheet
they piloted through a seven day storm
no sleep no sleep until it dialed down
salted air and foam lodged within
the corrugated bone
they untethered too soon
a misstep any good sailor could take
to make the much needed repairs
high up on the mainsail mast
when taken by a gust and forever
lost to sea
#katyamills
their opinions
dragged on inside her skull for years
carrying the tune until
one forlorn day
she picked up a despondent note
by the handle
stuck it with ultra tons
of glitter and glue
crafted an off key
to unlock her super
future
#katyamills
you said
you carried conversations in your head with me like i was there
when i was not
you said i said
i love you
i kissed your head i said
the i that was not i was true
because i do
#katyamills
with terrifying promise
fall’s early darkness
raised mushrooms and flowers black
alongside creatures
conceived by lifeless
ground. needless of the sun
indomitable
#katyamills
yes
you burned me again
reigniting the past through your dirty broken
magnifying lens
hurt
i turned away from this nonsense
and toward my aunt whom you told me
in the same breath
died
harboring the question
have you no heart?
to me
you are like
a stranger
#katyamills
the earth does all the heavy lifting
the sun just shines
today
leave the past in the past
where it was meant
to be
let the future be unknown
today be like the sun
let the earth do the lifting
stand up for yourself and
shine
#katyamills
the microclimates
produced by particular social medias
had an insalubrious effect
on them
they began to feel distant
the more they connect
#katyamills
i live with you
you crossed into my mitochondria
when i was a kid
and we are inextricably bound
at the cellular level
facing life together
depression
you cannot have me you
cannot control me you
cannot silence me
i live for those dashed upon
your rocky cape
whose spirits can be heard
in one hundred knot winds
whispering oh! if i had but one more day
what i would do!
the sun has risen
the day given
you cannot have my motivation
my inspiration my
determination
to live and fight
and love
#katyamills
i published it at an unusual time
by candlelight
the coffee strong
the songs we joyfully butchered
the night long
our differences cast
aside
#katyamills
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