trouble

was my middle
name. i used to think you oughta

stir shit up. now i know

anarchy is over
rated

revolution will
occur naturally now and
then

do not provocate

just because you see a change

before it comes

be the change. educate

peace is a precious
metal

-K

test flick gnash

i was going about my day with

the best intentions the

squirrels started to chatter told me

all kinds of things none of which were true

gnawing on acorns leaving shells

scattered around my mind

 

i was gonna have to sweep and mop

convinced i was no good

the world a terrible place

 

i found a nice tree to sit under

for a spell i

lay my head back butterflied my arms out

closed my eyes

prayed for several days. the squirrels

they finally jumped

out from the crown

clung to the tree testing

their little claws flicking

their puffy tails

gnashing their teeth they

took off chasing into the high branches

 

when i finally stood

my thoughts were peaceful

friendly. you

gotta make the most of what

you got

 

i gnashed my teeth

and tested back

luke.warm

i saw you and spoke to you and you gave me a lukewarm response. you were with a friend and preoccupied. i was on another mission. i hope you know i care about you. i was trying to say so with my eyes. you have been through some fire. being a social worker is a lucky way to live. they find you [or you them], in their darkness, and you have a chance to make a meaningful difference. then you detach and they become just another star in the firmament, and all you gotta do is look around to see the ones who made it, and they light up your life.

the consciousness

i saw you less and less then
there was the accident
i hoped for you to heal
i prayed for you
what happened to the kid
to turn the thoughts against
them? how sometimes we 

cannot want the best
for anyone?
may we become
the consciousness of caring ina
time of urgent need!
if i falter the old ways
resurface like the deepest
hurt striking out
the consciousness turns
drawn up off the
bottom of the
sea

+7+

you were always a little bit laughing at the end of your sentences. i was in the kitchen working up a goulash, juggling pots and pans. some days are busier than others and that’s okay. this is the seventh anniversary of not being up to no good. i had to ask you to repeat yourself. you barked at me and i purred back. being nonbinary i gave up on normalcy long ago.

ii cokes

i bought two cokes one for

me one for you. some lady came in and barked do you have this? 

do you have that? no we do not

people can be so demanding

a kid in the backseat of a car hung out his head along

with the dog in his arms both of them

smiling panting happy to be alive

some pop song driven twisted through the lot

drinking malt liquor on a saturday

afternoon. i’m sure thankful

it’s not me