no.20

like a secret 

in the nucleus 

of the yolk

of the eye

we defy analytics

science

religion

sharpened by 

the guarantee of 

annihilation

unwilling 

to be dulled

by screens

technology or

tradition

#katyamills

holy city

bubble gum holy city

as a symbol Jerusalem represents so much to the world and its religions. one would be outright foolish to try and wrap the archetype around some personal or even interpersonal wet dream. corporate thought processes delude you. pursuit of a bubble gum packaging theme. one could lose faith.

book review

Review: Tao Te Ching

Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Basic
Instruxions
Before you
Leave the
Earth

so don’t leave home
without it!

i keep a copy on my nightstand
and its all beat to hell!

church.15

The church was good when
all were selfless
singing organs
blaring ego hid
the devil

god.15

once i got a safe distance from the church

i gave my heart to god

destination politics

i feel sorry for anyone who says you are going to hell or heaven awaits us. Where is this far distant place? to locate oneself at some point in the future? I call this destination politics, and I copyright it NOW. I live here, now. My world I create as I go along. So does anybody. Go back and look at your life. The choices you had. Anywhere on the timeline. You will see you created your life as it stands. You will see how you could not predict your own future. Except in terms of your attitude toward life. I predict my future, in terms of my effort. And my effort exists only right now, as I type.

Attempted novelist.

Attempted social worker.

Attempted empath.

Attempted poet.

Heaven or hell? These culturally impoverished symbols stand out to me, moment to moment. Am i in pain? To what extent? Do I feel good about myself. How so? What I am finding is it all correlates to my efforts. My efforts to be sincere, and think outside of my self. My efforts to exercise and share my talents, without fear of reprisal, without demanding any return on my investment of time and energy. Having faith that all will be provided me. When I live there, I guess you could call this heaven. The way I see it, this is never a place to go, this is a place to be. 

When I am so self-consumed or in fear or inaction, living in patterned recollections of situations which did not go my way, living in expectation of what’s to come, playing destination politics with other people and myself… when I demand and control my way around the place… This is some hell. 

And religion has nothing to do with it. 

And religion has nothing to do with it.

And religion has nothing to do with it. 

 

 

 

god saw us watching tv

about the
self

the mental
health
gone
stealth

about out
side

to save the
world we
tried

i lied
god saw us
watching
tv

and
nearly died

Silent sees me

My debut novel ‘Girl Without Borders’ is currently on sale for 99 cents on Amazon. Please hit the link at the top of the page. Thanks!

silent sees me http://www.katyamills.com/2014/04/silent-sees-me.html