silence

like the greatest adversary

i once fought it. many are the ways to silence

silence

today it lives

among the things

i cherish most

#katyamills

by the way

you can find and read the many books i have written here…

https://www.goodreads.com/author/show/7276703.Katya_Mills

the idiot

in the year of the tiger

i promise myself to hunt down good books

in the protagonist i see

myself. awkward at the party 

inflated with passion of they convictions

breaking the matriarch’s cherished vase

i laugh and go to bed

#katyamills

30 watts

30 watt lightbulb 

splashed across these

walls like lemon 

lemme see your face

up from these pages why

do you cry? they cannot hurt

you. lemme read you

these damn classics 

until we fall  asleep

#katyamills

modernity.8

they dial into eternity by mobile phone 
8 years and more
substance free

they subsist on

modernity


the kettle boils
for coffee for

tea

grown up again from seed

they are given and take 

the lead


#katyamills

water air prayer

i seem to always be working on the residuals of my mental illness, sweeping them up and out of my life. this is a maintenance thing, i mean, i have to radically accept the eternal presence of anxiety and depression. they no longer stop me from living my life like they did before (and after) i got clean, six and half years back. yet they are like a snake and threaten to constrict. i have to maintain and keep building. thank god i have a career that enriches me. i have a home and can cook my own food. i have my health and no longer take psych meds. the recollections of traumas have subsided though they sometimes resurface in nightmares and an uneasy mistrustful and guarded relationship with both internal and external worlds. i am working on self-discipline. my stress levels fluctuate but are more manageable when i eat healthy and exercise and stretch. life demands mindfulness. i am drinking more of water and air and prayer. i am devoting more time to reading and writing. i read at night, before bed. on weekdays i get up before dawn and write, more and more frequently. it is hard to build the life you wanna live but it sure is worthwhile.

reading #250

ATE BY KATYA

reading #247

ATE by Katya Mills

reading #243

reading by Katya

reading #229

AME AND THE TANGY ENERGETIC

reading #225

AME AND THE TANGY ENERGETIC BY KATYA MILLS