psychosis.15

there’s nothing will stop me
you will be mine

no law can enforce
my psychosis

psycho

all my trauma

unresolved 

dissolved for a moment 

last night

 

i was watching a show 

 

the guy he looked

similar 

younger

he acted the same

heavyset

belligerent

 

he was a drunk

 

i had not seen this

before

i was not prepared

to see what i saw

 

see

saw

 

the guy got into an altercation

with her

verbal

 

she told him to fuck off

 

get off my property

if i see you again

i will shoot you

dead

 

he staggered off 

accurately drunk

good actor

 

that’s my grandfather’s house

bitch!

go ahead call the police

bitch!

 

he was apparently friends

with the law 

a small town

 

quite the same

 

she was strong like me

blonde like me

maybe crazy like

me

 

but i could see the fear

behind her 

eyes

 

this is my house!

and everything in it

he was fucking her 

over the kitchen table

 

breaking 

entering

 

i kept watching cause

she was strong

i knew it would not be

long

 

it was almost midnight

valentine’s day

i started to cry a little

the violence

 

twenty 

fourteen

and all alone

 

all my trauma

resolved

for a moment

 

she was sitting on his chest

he was lying on the floor

she was stabbing 

into him

 

the knife was bloody

his blood

the floorboards quiet

holding 

supporting

 

the sweet 

viscous

vengeance

 

my blood was pumping

my heart was racing

the tears fallen away

now

 

a clearing

 

i kept thinking 

yes 

yes

yes

 

she was strong

exacting

psycho

perfect

 

the wounded

healer

in

me