dawn #534

dawn broke as i walked to see you

bounce in my step. neon signs spun the fog

into curls how unfortunate you

were not home. dashed my love

drifted. piecemeal. distributed among the forlorn

manic girls party boys and the mangy 

cur      #katyamills

response

i remember how we met last year, a hopeful time for us, our mutual friend turned me on to your work. we were closer than friends really and had never been acquainted. up late the night before i read what you wrote then drove, me and my guy, down to alameda to see daniela, her daughter and you. memories of life in oakland flooding through me. the party was great though a little too much. you were tired from traveling the world and camped out in a big chair, anyways, and i came and sat down by all of you where we exchanged smiles and made eyes. the music and laughter and smoke. of course your words, the ones you wrote, i thanked you for them. this is how it can be with us writers. 

kid (intoxicated)

the carpet fibers were springy
under the step you could fall

in them and sit there in
the middle of the
room

no one would make
a big deal you were
little enough everyone
had a smile

for you except maybe the
most checked out of them
thinking about divorce
wondering how much it
would cost

nobody knew you but you
were drunk some too
off vodka and cranberry and
you knew nobody knew

you nobody knew
or you knew them too
the laughter felt loud all
inside you

wouldn’t it be nice
if mom tucked you
in already? why not
stay up with the lights
and smiles smell of gin

you know
they know you don’t know
how it feels but you
do and the ice cubes sound

like wind chimes

nobody knew but you you
were. guessed you for happy go
lucky

Vanish

appearances
made

politesse
made
marmalade

transparancies
of whole
oranges

unaccustomed
dyed in wool
deadened

shaking hand
shakes

lost to
frost

social gelatin
social skeleton

closet exo
incites
rattle
snakes

ice cube
fornicates
behind glass palms
sweating

remembering
forgetting

dish colored
vacuum rag

the pleasure
all mine

your precognitive
dash and
dine

binging
purging

toxic
intoxicating

divine
unnatural
like
swerves

sexy in lace
spermicidal

dish colored
dilution

washed clean
at the ready

disregard the
cavernous
distance

attentions
Irreparable
cosigned with
bull shit

demonstrative
pathetic
like
DVR offal

stand
can’t stand

Truth
hitting every
one
up side
down

vanishing
like that

sad sorrowful
material
retreat

immaterial
like
ennui