Tag Archives: letting go
a prayer. #archive 2015
i want only to live my life and let you go, please, may i have the courage to walk away and wish you well, healing and happiness and all the things cash cannot buy. no matter how many phone numbers are blocked, hurtful text messages deleted, email addresses registered as spam; no matter how many doors i lock and photos i delete and letters i recycle, nothing changes unless i settle with myself. yes i am branded, yes i wear your imprint on my heart. and how can i regret, what with all the goodness you gave me before we fell out? those moments in love were unbelievable. i am incredulous, shocked, having lost you. years have passed and still you find a way to me. to hurt me some more with the painful rewriting of our history. please forgive me, but i must for my spirit and forever walk away from you. when i remember you, i promise to try and remember when you were the greatest. we were the best and for a second. no one will remember but us, the flash the spark we were and then were over. and now i say goodbye. and i love you.
give thanks
If life has worn you out, be worn out for a while and let yourself surrender. Try and be grateful. For only can you be tired by living if you have truly lived, and it is the living that you did that made you feel the way you feel now. Some don’t get the chance to feel beat down by a hard day’s work because for some reason they are not living like you are, maybe they are not now capable of really letting themselves go and get carried away. May today be a day to give thanks for the life that beats us up and wears us out, working, raising kids, building something, caring for someone, devotion, fighting for something, loving someone, learning our lessons, taking our licks, falling, getting up, pulling ourselves together, asking for help, succeeding, failing, crying, laughing, running, shouting, breathless, dreaming, getting quiet again… and looking back we would do it all over again.
some friend
some friends
you cast out for them
too small
they have to be tossed back
to the sea
do over
do over
ten five. fish
some friends are like
friends are like
are like
fish you cast out for
them cast out for them
out for them
and (too small) they
have to be have
to be too small and
thrown back to the
back to the
shallows the
sea
miss middle name panic
Stress
took over her life
panic
her
middle
name
became
Red hot
to the touch
Cold facing
the clock
Miss
Middle
name
panic
hummed
weathered bars
fractured
eyeball capillaries
curled into
snowballs
melted
down 2
floorboards
down 2
disappear
Until pray
One day
turned
somethin
over
stress
got arrested
by the
fashion police
panic confined
2 a cold copper
bed
who knew