we could keep us around by populating a host planet or why not go extinct right here, and let earth eradicate our species? we’ve had a good run. we could show our greatest virtue and make room for new species. we will look better in retrospect.
As we walk these streets, mine and yours, the streets are ours.
Like the dope beats that we produced.
The rhythms. The –
Stop. I made a mistake.
No editing over ok.
Let the mistake be seen here now.
Otherwise how will you know I am human?
This your personal captcha.
I gotta build your trust. I wanna.
At least today.
I want the relationship in our fantasy to be sorta real but not exactly.
I have only one chance to get to intrigue.
I am excited like a heart in oxygenated blood. Like a come on before an orgasm.
The lens taking lessons from the eyes.
The ones who keep trying after so many tries.
Cause who would I be to simply cast a darkness around myself with my thoughts?
Who would I be if I grasped only the egocentric mind?
Writing checks cannot be cashed.
The divinity so mined.
The one I emulate. My deep model.
Singing all the harmony right off the glass bottle.
Anytime or three am, any night.
I used to manifest her, and feel all right.
Its okay to just say that you don’t know yourself so perfect yet, either.
Truth is you never know.
Self is not one fixed thought or interval. No.
And this is my opinion.
You can love it to death and cook it in a broth of onions you pulled from the ground.
Feels good when you commit.
Have you done so lately?
This is not a demand or an opportunity to embarrass you taken.
It is ok if you think so.
Then tell me somehow. If you can.
My feelings are my feelings.
I ask only that you be as honest as you can.
Such a brief intersection, our lives.
I wanna know you.
Well enough to help you with a little something or other.
Take off some of your burden.
For I see that you are aching.
Cause I know this particular iradescent-type
You would worry when I started talkin’ about culture. I would be sad, when you were tellin’ me about the future. We would worry , at the bottom of some grave just above sea level, just outside New Orleans. At the top of some skyscraper, in Chicago. Short days getting shorter, as winter came on. Worries becoming more defined, less complicated as time went on. Less akin to fear. More real. And I could still talk to you and you, me, but neither of us could talk to anybody else. Sometimes. Lots of unintentional broken promises in the world. But why? Was it something about all the air traffic competing for attention, packets and waves? Digital signals. Analog overtones. Low def signals. High def undertones?
Anyway, I didn’t expect to be put on trial in Judge So-and-So’s court, either. Who plans out their court appearances, precisely, like bottle-ship builders? So why were we there? Public scrutiny over our could give a damn about our in-laws presentation? To be backhanded for being attracted like mothra to roman candle, to our favorite chosen outlaws? For our multiple citations for by-law window breakage of some corporate glass house? Ya. I guess we’re gonna get black for our wool designation. I never asked to be anything. An icon. A nobody. A sentimentalist. A freak. A mentor. A bleeding heart. An outlaw. A witness. I never asked to be an witness. Did you? I just was one.
I never wanted to dig up dirt on anyone. You never wanted to unearth the once savory bones of goodwill gone bad in an microcosmic corner of a lemon-mustard seed culture, sitting between continents like a refrozen sorbet on dragon roll rotation. But when called, one must avoid perjury. We have a strong defense at the ready. Your honor, please, let me call the most dysfunctional family in the greater regional area, to the stand. Ya, they can all fit in the witness box. They speak in unison. No questions, your honor. Just let them knock around up there for a minute. Their presence alone tells volumes. We rest our case.
We are certainly not guilty of crimes against humanity, ourselves included. It’s not my fault my dna bleeds german. Objection! It wasn’t your preoccupation to study the figures on automaton optimization protocol. I was born in the seventies, man! In the usa. My job was to be free to be me! Not some blueprint come to life on any sale of the century showcase! You were not conceived c-section after a long night of difficult breakbeat breathing, just to end up hanging on some arm or olive branch, for an hour every week! Were you? I was not born an accoutrement! To help sell fine sports cars, toys of the nouveau riche! No! We’re not going at a discount in a dollar store anymore, to someone who looks the part. A good study for consumption! I am no notch in the belt or raggedy rag in the hair, anymore. Trying so hard to protect them from some sun.
We must have early stage alzheimers, you and me and them. Its those iron pots. We gotta get rid of those iron pots…the studies have shown. How many times have we told us? This is where the real crime occurred. In the kitchen. Heavy metal. Its no good for our soft shell brain cells. Shit! Have we all been frying our eggs in it, again? Goodness gracious! Almost forgot to admit that into evidence. Who signed off on iron, in the first place? Was a backroom deal, I bet. Steel got edged out by some caucasian’s half-baked sales pitch, on some back-nine golf game. Before aluminum and Tiger Woods.
That’s how it must have gone down. We may not remember when, exactly, but we were brainwashed by the nine iron lobby. That should shut the door on the case. Now who gets life served up behind steel bars? Whose gonna iron this out? For driving me and you (insane)?
Why? Because we work better, this way.
Katya Mills 07/13 @ katyamills.com
There was something (nondescript perhaps) imminent. The humans knew this much. The animals knew more. The plants belonged. The earth produced. The liquid underearth strata created this nondescript something imminent. All we humans got on our sentient radar was imminence. So issues of much less importance trumped(and trumped easily) this great and possibly horrible imminent situation. The animals tried to give us the dl down low hello. Then, when the time had come, scurried and leapt to low ground and away from us.
We were certainly high on something or another. Chemical romance. Oxytocin. Norepinephrine firing like fresh clean oiled and polished cannon balls barreling towards some forgotten target. High on whatever we want so bad we must get get get! The animals strategic movement was benign unremarkable herd drift. Maybe a couple of Britishand Norwegian migration trackers packed up and left home with docudrama on their minds and euros in their funded pockets. They just preferred to spend three quarters of the year away from all humanity as well. Their occupations afforded them an easy excuse.
Some called them spiritual. Some called them famished. Either way, whatever was about to happen was not to be anticipated by any of us, no matter their rank, IQ, gender, sexual orientation, race, attitude, level of curiosity, ability to regulate emotional lability, nature, continuum of looks (ie beautiful to cannot look), allostasis (areas of life failure to keep balance in the graphic equalizer of experience).
For suddenly like a shift in winds, all of them vaulted up the grassy hills rising up either side of the valley. They peaked the crest of the ridge, and remained awaiting encrypted instructions under the appropriate sky signed authority. Cloaking had been activated, with coordinates unknown and unreported and otherwise….never happened, aka Unreleased from and to perpetuity, subtract infinitum.