ptsd in me

years back
some awful stuff
i witnessed
i lived

i carried a diagnosis
ptsd

a gang of sensations
still oppress me
from time to time

this inability to relax or feel calm
for days on end. particularly around dreaded
anniversaries

i check the deadbolts again and again
and still cannot feel safe

in my own home
in the fellowship of friends

in my own head

despite the love
of family

i hope they go away
but if they do not
i can be thankful
i survived

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5 responses to “ptsd in me

  1. Hey, hope you are doing well.

    I invite you to read a post of mine where I am gathering links of warriors facing mental health challenges 1st hand to educate people, to raise awareness and acceptance.

    I need help from you in fighting stigma.

    Here is the link to post..
    https://stoneronarollercoaster.wordpress.com/2018/04/27/mental-health-awareness/

    Your participation can change life of someone.

    Thank you 🙂

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  2. “I can be thankful I survived.”

    Words to live by. Powerful reminder that we are more than the trauma that tried to destroy us, more than the hurt, pain, and awful symptoms. We are survivors, thrivers. We live another day to love, to conquer, to enjoy the beautiful things in life. Thank you for the reminder; I needed it today.

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